Oh. My. God...
Ok so before I start, I need to explain what I mean by "Omegaverse", because I know the whole "alpha omega beta" fanfiction thing is also called "Omegaverse".
So SiIvagunner, it contains many universes in its lore. Kind of an integral thing in the lore. One of those universes contains all the "brainrot", namely Gegagedigegagedaoh, aka Gegagedi or Nugget for short. This universe, as far as I know, is called the "Omegaverse" (though for all I know, that could be a fan name).
It's got "brainrot" galore! Iiiiii cant list them all though bc idk the names. But the main three in this universe are Gegagedi, Pomni, and Boykisser.
However, that wasn't always the case, at least in Pomni's case. As revealed in one of the April Fools 2025 rips, specifically Enter Exist - The Amazing Digital Circus, Pomni got dragged into a room by Justin Bieber, found a hallway with doors to other universes, and escaped into the "Omegaverse" in a panic, just wanting a quick way out of the circus before Caine could catch her.
Gegagedi is a WHOLE can of worms tho, and frankly I was only paying half attention with the rips featuring his lore. So I'll go back to those on a rewatch sometime. And Boykisser, Im currently watching his lore thing rn.
The reason Im making a whole blogpost about this shit is bc I'm actually, like, INVESTED??????????? WHY AM I INVESTED IN THIS SHIT????????????????????????????????????????
Absoluteley crazy how SiIva team can somehow make a fanbase love the most hated, trashed on, "brainrot" things to an almost unironic, if not completely unironic way. Fuckin love this channel.
Update: A bit further in the Boykisser choose-your-own-adventure, and oh my god. Why do I actually like this weird hyper silly guy????????? I actually wanna be his friend wtf. He's also apparently friends with KAPI???? The character made by Paperkitty?! Most known from the Vs. Kapi FNF mod?!
I should be asleep bc of tomorrow's Nintendo Switch 2 Direct, but nhngghgnvhhgnhghnnhhgnghnnh I NEED TO SEE MORE!!!!! Imma look at all the other routes/endings.
GASP!!!
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COCOA REAL???????? IM POINTING AT THE SCREEN LIKE A MADWOMAN RN?????????????????????
I think I might love Boykisser (platonically), at least the SiIvagunner version of the character. He's weird and silly and hyper and is DEEP into his interests and gets easily distracted by fictional men, but is also a generally sweet and kind person despite his quirks, and even has moments where he expresses deeper subjects. To be honest, he reminds me of one of my friends. You know who you are. Yes, you. Pointing at the screen right now. Staring at you right now.
Update: THE HOMOPHOBIC DOG IS CANON TO SIIVAGUNNER AND IT BULLIED BOYKISSER FOR BEING GAY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! THIS LORE IS INSANITY AND I LOVE IT LMAO. Done w/ all the "A Date with Boykisser" videos, and wow. I might be severely brainrotted bc I loved this. Nowhere near my favorite things of all time, but it's definitely a welcomed ingredient to my love for Siivagunner. Very grand.
Hi hi! Sorry for the hiatus, I got wayyyyy too sucked into Roblox's event, The Hunt: Mega Edition. Got very drained and honestly kinda stressed from that.
BUT! I'm back on my feet, I'm now in my lock-in arc, and Imma come with some BIG updates as soon as possible.
I've been working on some BIG pages, and y'know what, Imma show some little preview stuff from my time making them! Do note that everything Im showing is from development, nothing's final.
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I'm finally making an OC Page!!!
This has been something I've always been wanting to do ever since the very, VERY beginning of this site, but I didn't really know what I wanted to go for with it's look, nor how to achieve it. Of course, I could've made it basic, but to me, this website is an art project. One that's made out of complete passion, one with no deadline. So I wanted to take my time and truly figure out how I wanted to do this, and thankfully I figured it out!
About the page itself, it's based off of menus from the Sonic Riders series, namely Sonic Riders: Zero Gravity. The usage of icons is inspired by the Super Smash Bros series, as well as more directly inspired by SiIvagunner's King For Another Day Torunament (as well as other music tournaments that spawned from that, such as Mashup week and Another Unnecessary Tournament).
I'd talk about the OC featured on screen, Harmony, but I think it's best I let the gal herself introduce herself in this next preview!
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This is a small snippet from Harmony's dedicated info page, very much so made to look like an old version of Roblox's website! (probably difficult to tell from this screenshot alone, bit I wanted to focus on the character portion lol)
Anyways, I'm running out of things to say, so uhhhhh thats all! Very excited to finish all this and release it! Ehehehe!
Byebye!
I feel like rambling abt something random 2day lol.
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Fuck it, when in doubt, talk abt site ideas lol
Something small I wanna do at some point is rename the Extra Goodies page to be more of an Operating System name. Yk, to fit the whole desktop look of the page. Smth like "Xtra O.S." or something. Probably not that exactly, but you get the idea.
I have been making small progress on completely redesigning the homepage to be more of a scrolling format, where I can put a bunch of info and stuff on there. Buuuuut it'll take a long time, I still haven't finished the Art Gallery, and there are a ton of other pages I wanna make ontop of that; like OC pages and character/series shrines, among others.
I've yet to make more fake ads for this page, so that's smth I wanna get to eventually. Same with making other original graphics for the site. Also making a true music player (it'll be difficult to figure out how to code all that tho =w=). Theme switching is something I'm kinda 50/50 on implementing. On one hand, it sounds really nice, buuuuuut w/ how unique my site is visually, it'd be so much work for smth that isn't really needed. Maybe I'll make an extra page for me to test themes.
Bugs are also smth I wanna fix. There's especially this one specific bug (or coding oversight?) on the Extra Goodies page, where clicking anywhere in the body will make the background change, when I just want one button to change the background.
Ofc, I'm not gonna pile all of these things up at once, but it's good to reflect on what all I wanna make. It helps me remember what all I want to add, plus it lets you all know what's planned for the site's development!
Idk what's been up with me lately. Past 2 or 3 days specifically. I've just been isolating myself in my room, watching random streamers on Twitch and laying down. The main exception is today, I forced myself to go out to my mom's work because the way I've been is depressing.
Some stuff has been on my mind though, so maybe I should talk about it here, get it out there and stuff.
I think one thing is that, well... I'm worried. Or rather, scared, to be out there, to be percieved. I read a post on Tumblr a few days ago, about someone's experience being a trans woman. It was, well, horrible. She was shunned, betrayed, silently shut out, just treated negatively overall just because she's a trans woman. It wasn't made for pity, but to show that the isolating experiences she described in her post can be and are real.
But that's what scares me most. It has my brain crawling with thoughts full of fear.
"what if i go out, and everyone fears me for just being who i am?" One says. "what if i'm judged, always being watched, always being seen as an abuser, just for the way i was born? Another says. "what if their fears end up getting me hurt? or even... dead?" Says another.
Worst part is... What if they're right to fear me? What if I really am just a disgusting, abusing man. What if I am just getting in womens spaces just to creep on them? What if I should be hurt, killed for being what I am? Should I detransition? Just be the man that everyone sees me as? Should I just be normal? Am I even normal? I... don't know.
It really does feel like the whole world is against me. And it feels like I'm not good enough to combat it. And it feels like I'm alone. I feel desperate for some solution that truly works for me. Or at least just, some help.
I think I'm gonna end this vent post now. Sorry.
Winter's finally starting to come to a close, and I couldnt be happier about that.
Two days ago, we had beautiful, 50 degree (fairengheight or whatever its called lol, too lazy to look up the spelling). And it was beautiful. I actually felt happy, I actually felt like doing things, it was actually amazing. It was the day I put out the latest update, in fact! I could've drawn that day, but I realized I really needed to update the wishlist page of this site, so I decided to just chill and do that (and release some of the smaller updates that were on the backburner).
I havent been like, totally depressed, but this was the first time in a while where I actually felt GREAT! AMAZING! ACTUALLY ENGAGING WITH LIFE!
And this kinda happens every spring. I realized last fall that I have seasonal depression, so I expected it to be the same this year too. And I was RIGHT! LOOKING OUT MY WINDOW AND SEEING RAIN INSTEAD OF SNOW, THE DAYS OF NICE AIR, ITS GENUINELY AMAZING!!!!!!!
Fun fact! When I was playing around with new usernames, one of them was LilySprings. Obviously, because of my love of spring as a season. But also because like, c'mon, "Lily Springs" sounds like a beautiful hot spring! Part of me sorta kinda maybe wishes that I kept that username for the theming alone, buuuuuut I like the slight strawberry thing I have going on here, and the Sunseed Berry (the name of strawberries in the Pikmin series) fits that PERFECTLY!
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...Whats this? I forgot to finish this a few hours ago?
Well, here's something extra then.
The latest Pokemon Presents just concluded, and not gonna lie, underwhelming as a presentation.
BUT! The Legends Z-A trailer was fucking awesome! I LOOOOVE the new gameplay they have for this entry. As much as I'd love for them to put this kind of innovation into the main series, I do kinda see why they won't do that. The mainline titles are made to be simple experiences for all demographics, after all. REGARDLESS, IM GLAD THEY'RE INNOVATING ON THE POKEMON FORMULA!! THIS IS GONNA BE AWESOME!!!!!
i swear to got if the people crying about "ohhh the graphics are bad wahhhh" are also people who agree with the statement "i want shorter games with worse graphics made by people who are paid more to work less", i will actually strangle them. trust.
Like COME ON, WHY DOES IT MATTER IF THE TEXTURES ARE A LITTLE LACKING OR SOMETHINGSOMETHING POP-IN OR WHATEVER?! SHOULD WE NOT BE MORE FOCUSED ON THE ACTUAL GAMEPLAY????????? URGURGHGHRGHRGHRGHRHGGHHGAGHGHRGHRAHGHARGHRAGHGHGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Aaaanyways. Thats all 4 me 2day!
TLDR; Spring is coming soon, and I am really happy 4 that. And the Pokemon Legends Z-A trailer looks AMAZING!
With all that outta the way, it's time 4 me to hop off (and sleep bc my sleep schedule's ass and i stayed up longer just to watch the pokemon presents lol)
Soooooo buh-byeeee!! ^w^
Hellohello! Anyone who's visited this site before might notice that something's changed. Well- that EVERYTHING'S changed! So what's up with that?
Well, I planned to keep updating the old style and layout, but I realized something... my code just DID NOT work well. And more than that, I just kept struggling so much to work with the old layout itself, a big part of that being the code.
Of course, I couldve just worked to update the code, but I just wasn't having fun with working on this website anymore. So I just threw it away (metaphorically, of course), and took some time to figure out what I was missing. What made this not fun for me?
Well, a big problem was something simply with myself. I tried to be the best version of myself, tried to put myself in a box, stick to one thing. But I should've just been, well... me! So I completely rebooted, and spent the past few months to truly make something that fit me.
If you look at the site back then (which you can in the site archive, as visually interesting and clearly non-corpo as it looked, you can probably tell (at least in hindsight) that it felt almost closed off. I talked about interests a handful of times, but it felt more focused on the image of me, rather than the me that was on the inside.
But now? from the very moment you enter the page, you see three interests of mine: Kirby, Deltarune, and Siivagunner. Then you get to the home page: Yume Nikki. Digital Diary? Siivagunner again, both in visuals and posts. Extra Goodies? Windows 95 aesthetic (tho, this was in the old version of the site). About The Artist? Tells way more about me than any intro I've written in the past. There are even more pages that are just me putting my interests first.
Point is, I really took my time to really enjoy the process of making this new version of the website, a version that fully represents ME, and all my interests, creations, passions, inconsistencies, etc. I added things that I've always wanted for the old version: mobile-support, single page for all blog posts, credits page, archive page. I STILL haven't added everything I want, but I'm gonna take my time with releasing each thing, to make sure things are functional, High Quality, and most importantly: fun for me!
And, if you're new here, I wholeheartedly welcome you! And I hope you enjoy this site!
Omg, I completely forgot to mention the RE:SPH ARG that began at the end of last year, and continued on the 17th (2 days ago).
I absolutely LOVE this, it's bringing every little bit and piece of SiIvagunner's history together into one crazy rollercoaster of a community experience.
It's actually so fun experiencing this (even if I'm not actively participating myself)
I wanna make a page specifically for SiIvagunner at some point, specifically for explaining the lore and especially this ARG. The look of this page is very directly inspired by the HWCInternalDB site that the ARG takes place in.
I'm too tired to finish writing uhhhhhhhhhh oh well, this aint going up til like 2 weeks or smth.
Soooo, it's been a while.
A lot has happened between now and the last post, so I'll catch you up a bit.
I started posting on Bluesky more (kinda abandoned tumblr tbh, it's too weird to use for me). I played Sonic x Shadow Generations, which is a BANGER game btw. Thanksgiving was nice, Christmas was even better. Made a new friend sorta. Uhhhhhh thats kinda all for 2024, at least that I can think of off the top of my head.
Now for THIS YEAR! At the end of last year, I made a big list of 25 New Years resolutions, which I call "25 Quests in 2025". Some quests are big, some are small, most have Bonus versions which are kinda just extensions of the original quest (like if I had to do a spin, the Bonus version would be do a spin 5 times or something, just a little bonus challenge if I wanna do it).
My biggest goal in my list is drawing everyday. Might seem difficult, but it's only gonna be doodles with a pixel brush tbh (unless I have a big ol piece that's for something else, of course). I've definitely gotten close to failing a few times (mostly due to drawing late, and putting a lil too much effort in it).
Anyways, yeah! That's all for now! Byebye!
So yesterday (Nov. 6th) was... not great. If you know about the election results, you'll probably know why.
I went to my mom's work again, which was still nice and kept me relatively grounded, but the news still took a toll on my mental state (which has already been pretty bad due to life stuff).
There's not much I can say that other people haven't said before. I'm scared for the futures of mine and other peoples lives, even the ones of people I dont personally know. We're all in this together, after all. Knowing... feeling how many people have taken their lives from this is sad, it hurts me a lot. I cant help but fear that people I do know or have known were one of those people...
There's not much that I can do, but like others have said, the most important thing we can do is just stay alive and support whoever we can, even in little ways like making fanart of ocs or smth small (yet meaningful) like that. We will make it through this.
Anyways, with all of that out of the way, here's some stuff that happened that is cool.
I forgot to mention it in the last post (and I didnt wanna edit it lol), but I finally released this site outside of neocities! Yay! I'll also join LuvStar's mini social media thing that released recently for creatives (mainly those with websites); StarSubculture, which'll be rlly nice. Hoping to make some new friends through that!
I went on a walk with my mom (and dog) later in the day, which was a rlly nice moment to just breathe and relax for a while. The weather and overall vibe was just right too. Really nice walk.
I drew a Krilliam Afton. No I will not elaborate. No I will not show it. Why? Because funny lol.
I talked to a friend that I knew suffered some of the same problems as me, and they helped me a lot with knowing what to do with dealing a lot of those problems. I don't wanna get into like what problems and all that, but yea, they were a big help. It was hard for me to reach out to them, but I don't regret it in the slightest.
That's abt all tho, stay safe everyone. And one more thing, if you read all of this, feel free to dm me on one of my socials and send over your OC. I have a lot of OCs from small creators that I wanna draw. I've wanted to give to the art community for a long time, and while I'm also a small creator, I want others to be and feel seen. There's only so much that a little heart can do for someone, after all. And with me starting to hone in on my art and get back into the swing of things, I wanna help give others the motivation to keep going with their own art! I love smaller creators! Yippee!
Anyways that was longer than it could've been, but uhhhh yea gimme OC you goofsters
I went to work with mom today, it was nice.
Im tired asf bc I only got 2 and a half hours of sleep lol
But it was nice yea..
I was rlly productive, finished 4 sketches. One was a study of head resting on hand, wanted to learn bust drawings bc of some secret lil thing I have planned. It was actually fun learning it tho, which surprised me a bit.
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Another was an alternate dimension Cocoa; Cocoa Meadows. Not a final design I dont think, just sorta the groundwork for it. I always wanted Cocoa to have a more fall-themed design tbh, but it simply didn't fit with the more purple aesthetic I wanted for everything. So the whole universe thing is my way of getting both, having two cakes if you will.
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I did another study, trying to combine human and animal features in an uncanny way, without it looking suuuper ugly as shit. It's specifically for an OC that *is* a human-furry hybrid experiment thing.
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And finally, I redesigned one of my favorite ocs (who was a sona I used for a veeerrrrrrry long time). I tried "redesigning" them once before not too long ago, but I got tripped up on the colors so I never ended up finishing it. Redesigning is in quotes bc I actually kept it very faithful to the original design, so it was more of a "remaster" of sorts? Regardless, rlly like this new design.
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Thats not aaaall I did tho. I actually started digitalizing the resting-head sketch to make it an actual drawing, bc Cocoa pretty and I love drawing her and the world can never have enough Cocoa Nova frfr.
Speaking of Cocoa, I did a liiiittle work on her model. Well, I actually changed it a lot from the first version I posted, but I haven't given an update on it in a while. I had actually remodeled the whole thing, using a bit of a different reference than what I had before, with it using more straight lines instead of being super smooth and round, which has made visualizing the end product a lot easier. Anyways, I did work on the hair. It's very uhhhhh flat, literally, but I'll round things out later on... also literally.
That's abt it I think. Overall just a rlly productive day that was mostly relaxing (aside from the sleepiness I had to fight, along with a burst of bad thoughts here and there.)
This'll go up tomorrow, I'm too eepy to code this thang in the blog, just writing this in my notes app lol.
(Note, it went up 2 days later lol, oops -w-)
Sooooo I've been working on some doing 3d modeling! (and a bunch of other stuff bc ngl Im all over the place with my projects lmaoo)
I tried to do it sometime in the summer, but uhhhhhh I naively did the donut tutorial... BIG mistake bc it was so long, and boring, and greuling, and I barely remembered anything from that.
BUT! Sometime in september I saw a post on twitter abt someone wanting to get into 3d modeling or smth like that, and someone replied to it mentioning that donut tutorial. And omg like all the replies to that reply were talking abt how it's NOT beginner friendly, and that helped me feel open to trying it out again. Almost coincidentally (or the uhhhh data trading creatures crawling around on every social media) a blender tutorial by Crashsune appeared on my youtube recommended.
Lemme tell ya'll, that whole tutorial series by Crashsune was like a GODSEND for me. It's like night and day comparing my experiences with those tutorials. I'm sure the donut has its place and all, but it really isn't beginner friendly in my experience.
ANYWAYS! I did that tutorial, it was really fun, had a blast. And NOW I'm working on making my own 3d model for my sona, Cocoa! Which, here's my progress so far:
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I think it's going pretty good so far! Tho one thing is worrying me... the hair. I really have no idea how to do any kinda black or lumpy hair yet, and unfortunately there's little to no low-poly characters from back then that *have* that kinda hair. Worst part is, I can't find ANYTHNG that I'm looking for when looking for low poly characters with curly hair. Sighhhh. I'll probably seek out help with that after I do the arms.
Since it's been a while since I last updated this site, here's another post abt what I plan bc I like rambling about this stuff lol
So! I finally pinpointed some things I wanted to do for some of these pages!
To start with the first page of the site: the Main Menu, I wanna add some more style to it. Especially some cool style stuff at the top and bottom of that page.
The changes I wanna make asap is sourcing my images on neocities itself, rather than storing them on a storage site and risking them getting completely deleted if the site goes down. Plus, it just makes thing infinitely easier.
The OC page and Extras pages are my next orders of business when it comes to the BIIIG stuff. The OCs page, I want it to look kinda like a fighting game screen, with all the tiles with characters in them. And for the Extras page, I ofc plan on adding more pages in there. The only one I have an idea and for is a Sound Test page, with a little fella dancing when the music plays (similar to the Sonic Advance games)
Thats right! I got a Madotsuki plush! Madotsuki plush real and true! Hell yeah! Yippee!
Fr though, I LOOOOVE this plush. It finally arrived yesterday and omg, it's so cute, and I'm so so happy to have it!
The plush is made by Frisk Wong, someone who makes a lot of Fumo-styled plushies of characters. They mostly make Touhou plushies, but they also have DDLC character plushies, and ofc Yume Nikki (with Madotsuki being the only one rn). They also have Natsuki from DDLC and Poniko from Yume Nikki coming sometime in the future.
Here are 2 pics I took of the lil gal yesterday
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So uhhhh, idk what to say here yet, this is p much just a test post. But uhhh... Actually idk what to talk about. I mean- I guess there IS something, and it's that I wanna say that I have BIG plans for this website. I want these pages to have more of individual themes, and just more charm and character overall. One idea I have is having the OCs page be similar to Sonic Advance's, though I dont have the skill for that yet, which is why it's currently under construction. I'm also thinking of having it be like a fighting game kinda character select? But again, dont have the coding skills for that yet. I also want more of these pages to have late 90s - early 2010s influence. Ofc, I gotta do all the basics and lay the foundation for the site first, before I move onto all the larger-scale stylistic flares and experimentation. I also wanna have a lil sound test room, with a lil guy that dances to the beat. That'll definitely be difficult to impliment I think. But yeah! Those are my current plans that I can think of! Thanks for reading! I plan on posting here like once a week at least.
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