Site Reboot!

2/3/2025

Hellohello! Anyone who's visited this site before might notice that something's changed. Well- that EVERYTHING'S changed! So what's up with that?
Well, I planned to keep updating the old style and layout, but I realized something... my code just DID NOT work well. And more than that, I just kept struggling so much to work with the old layout itself, a big part of that being the code.
Of course, I couldve just worked to update the code, but I just wasn't having fun with working on this website anymore. So I just threw it away (metaphorically, of course), and took some time to figure out what I was missing. What made this not fun for me?
Well, a big problem was something simply with myself. I tried to be the best version of myself, tried to put myself in a box, stick to one thing. But I should've just been, well... me! So I completely rebooted, and spent the past few months to truly make something that fit me.

If you look at the site back then (which you can in the site archive), as visually interesting and clearly non-corpo as it looked, you can probably tell (at least in hindsight) that it felt almost closed off. I talked about interests a handful of times, but it felt more focused on the image of me, rather than the me that was on the inside.
But now? from the very moment you enter the page, you see three interests of mine: Kirby, Deltarune, and Siivagunner. Then you get to the home page: Yume Nikki. Digital Diary? Siivagunner again, both in visuals and posts. Extra Goodies? Windows 95 aesthetic (tho, this was in the old version of the site). About The Artist? Tells way more about me than any intro I've written in the past. There are even more pages that are just me putting my interests first.

Point is, I really took my time to really enjoy the process of making this new version of the website, a version that fully represents ME, and all my interests, creations, passions, inconsistencies, etc. I added things that I've always wanted for the old version: mobile-support, single page for all blog posts, credits page, archive page. I STILL haven't added everything I want, but I'm gonna take my time with releasing each thing, to make sure things are functional, High Quality, and most importantly: fun for me!

And, if you're new here, I wholeheartedly welcome you! And I hope you enjoy this site!

Rambling about SiIvagunner's RE:SPH ARG

1/19/2025

Omg, I completely forgot to mention the RE:SPH ARG that began at the end of last year, and continued on the 17th (2 days ago).
I absolutely LOVE this, it's bringing every little bit and piece of SiIvagunner's history together into one crazy rollercoaster of a community experience.
It's actually so fun experiencing this (even if I'm not actively participating myself)
I wanna make a page specifically for SiIvagunner at some point, specifically for explaining the lore and especially this ARG. The look of this page is very directly inspired by the HWCInternalDB site that the ARG takes place in.
I'm too tired to finish writing uhhhhhhhhhh oh well, this aint going up til like 2 weeks or smth.

Life Update

1/15/2025

Soooo, it's been a while.
A lot has happened between now and the last post, so I'll catch you up a bit.

I started posting on Bluesky more (kinda abandoned tumblr tbh, it's too weird to use for me). I played Sonic x Shadow Generations, which is a BANGER game btw. Thanksgiving was nice, Christmas was even better. Made a new friend sorta. Uhhhhhh thats kinda all for 2024, at least that I can think of off the top of my head.

Now for THIS YEAR! At the end of last year, I made a big list of 25 New Years resolutions, which I call "25 Quests in 2025". Some quests are big, some are small, most have Bonus versions which are kinda just extensions of the original quest (like if I had to do a spin, the Bonus version would be do a spin 5 times or something, just a little bonus challenge if I wanna do it).

My biggest goal in my list is drawing everyday. Might seem difficult, but it's only gonna be doodles with a pixel brush tbh (unless I have a big ol piece that's for something else, of course). I've definitely gotten close to failing a few times (mostly due to drawing late, and putting a lil too much effort in it).

Anyways, yeah! That's all for now! Byebye!

I dunno lol

11/7/2024

So yesterday (Nov. 6th) was... not great. If you know about the election results, you'll probably know why.
I went to my mom's work again, which was still nice and kept me relatively grounded, but the news still took a toll on my mental state (which has already been pretty bad due to life stuff).
There's not much I can say that other people haven't said before. I'm scared for the futures of mine and other peoples lives, even the ones of people I dont personally know. We're all in this together, after all. Knowing... feeling how many people have taken their lives from this is sad, it hurts me a lot. I cant help but fear that people I do know or have known were one of those people...
There's not much that I can do, but like others have said, the most important thing we can do is just stay alive and support whoever we can, even in little ways like making fanart of ocs or smth small (yet meaningful) like that. We will make it through this.

Anyways, with all of that out of the way, here's some stuff that happened that is cool.
I forgot to mention it in the last post (and I didnt wanna edit it lol), but I finally released this site outside of neocities! Yay! I'll also join LuvStar's mini social media thing that released recently for creatives (mainly those with websites); StarSubculture, which'll be rlly nice. Hoping to make some new friends through that!
I went on a walk with my mom (and dog) later in the day, which was a rlly nice moment to just breathe and relax for a while. The weather and overall vibe was just right too. Really nice walk.
I drew a Krilliam Afton. No I will not elaborate. No I will not show it. Why? Because funny lol.
I talked to a friend that I knew suffered some of the same problems as me, and they helped me a lot with knowing what to do with dealing a lot of those problems. I don't wanna get into like what problems and all that, but yea, they were a big help. It was hard for me to reach out to them, but I don't regret it in the slightest.

That's abt all tho, stay safe everyone. And one more thing, if you read all of this, feel free to dm me on one of my socials and send over your OC. I have a lot of OCs from small creators that I wanna draw. I've wanted to give to the art community for a long time, and while I'm also a small creator, I want others to be and feel seen. There's only so much that a little heart can do for someone, after all. And with me starting to hone in on my art and get back into the swing of things, I wanna help give others the motivation to keep going with their own art! I love smaller creators! Yippee!
Anyways that was longer than it could've been, but uhhhh yea gimme OC you goofsters

A productive art day

11/5/2024

I went to work with mom today, it was nice.
Im tired asf bc I only got 2 and a half hours of sleep lol
But it was nice yea..

I was rlly productive, finished 4 sketches. One was a study of head resting on hand, wanted to learn bust drawings bc of some secret lil thing I have planned. It was actually fun learning it tho, which surprised me a bit.

CocoaSketch1.jpg

Another was an alternate dimension Cocoa; Cocoa Meadows. Not a final design I dont think, just sorta the groundwork for it. I always wanted Cocoa to have a more fall-themed design tbh, but it simply didn't fit with the more purple aesthetic I wanted for everything. So the whole universe thing is my way of getting both, having two cakes if you will.

CocoaSketch2.jpg

I did another study, trying to combine human and animal features in an uncanny way, without it looking suuuper ugly as shit. It's specifically for an OC that *is* a human-furry hybrid experiment thing.

OcSketch1.jpg

And finally, I redesigned one of my favorite ocs (who was a sona I used for a veeerrrrrrry long time). I tried "redesigning" them once before not too long ago, but I got tripped up on the colors so I never ended up finishing it. Redesigning is in quotes bc I actually kept it very faithful to the original design, so it was more of a "remaster" of sorts? Regardless, rlly like this new design.

OcSketch2.jpg

Thats not aaaall I did tho. I actually started digitalizing the resting-head sketch to make it an actual drawing, bc Cocoa pretty and I love drawing her and the world can never have enough Cocoa Nova frfr.

Speaking of Cocoa, I did a liiiittle work on her model. Well, I actually changed it a lot from the first version I posted, but I haven't given an update on it in a while. I had actually remodeled the whole thing, using a bit of a different reference than what I had before, with it using more straight lines instead of being super smooth and round, which has made visualizing the end product a lot easier. Anyways, I did work on the hair. It's very uhhhhh flat, literally, but I'll round things out later on... also literally.

That's abt it I think. Overall just a rlly productive day that was mostly relaxing (aside from the sleepiness I had to fight, along with a burst of bad thoughts here and there.)

This'll go up tomorrow, I'm too eepy to code this thang in the blog, just writing this in my notes app lol.
(Note, it went up 2 days later lol, oops -w-)

Doin a cool thang! (3d modeling!)

10/17/2024

Sooooo I've been working on some doing 3d modeling! (and a bunch of other stuff bc ngl Im all over the place with my projects lmaoo)

I tried to do it sometime in the summer, but uhhhhhh I naively did the donut tutorial... BIG mistake bc it was so long, and boring, and greuling, and I barely remembered anything from that.

BUT! Sometime in september I saw a post on twitter abt someone wanting to get into 3d modeling or smth like that, and someone replied to it mentioning that donut tutorial. And omg like all the replies to that reply were talking abt how it's NOT beginner friendly, and that helped me feel open to trying it out again. Almost coincidentally (or the uhhhh data trading creatures crawling around on every social media) a blender tutorial by Crashsune appeared on my youtube recommended.

Lemme tell ya'll, that whole tutorial series by Crashsune was like a GODSEND for me. It's like night and day comparing my experiences with those tutorials. I'm sure the donut has its place and all, but it really isn't beginner friendly in my experience.

ANYWAYS! I did that tutorial, it was really fun, had a blast. And NOW I'm working on making my own 3d model for my sona, Cocoa! Which, here's my progress so far:

3d-Cocoa-WIP.jpg

I think it's going pretty good so far! Tho one thing is worrying me... the hair. I really have no idea how to do any kinda black or lumpy hair yet, and unfortunately there's little to no low-poly characters from back then that *have* that kinda hair. Worst part is, I can't find ANYTHNG that I'm looking for when looking for low poly characters with curly hair. Sighhhh. I'll probably seek out help with that after I do the arms.

Another plans post! Yay!

10/10/2024

Since it's been a while since I last updated this site, here's another post abt what I plan bc I like rambling about this stuff lol

So! I finally pinpointed some things I wanted to do for some of these pages!

To start with the first page of the site: the Main Menu, I wanna add some more style to it. Especially some cool style stuff at the top and bottom of that page. The changes I wanna make asap is sourcing my images on neocities itself, rather than storing them on a storage site and risking them getting completely deleted if the site goes down. Plus, it just makes thing infinitely easier.

The OC page and Extras pages are my next orders of business when it comes to the BIIIG stuff. The OCs page, I want it to look kinda like a fighting game screen, with all the tiles with characters in them. And for the Extras page, I ofc plan on adding more pages in there. The only one I have an idea and for is a Sound Test page, with a little fella dancing when the music plays (similar to the Sonic Advance games)

Madotsuki Plush

9/19/2024

Thats right! I got a Madotsuki plush! Madotsuki plush real and true! Hell yeah! Yippee!

Fr though, I LOOOOVE this plush. It finally arrived yesterday and omg, it's so cute, and I'm so so happy to have it!

The plush is made by Frisk Wong, someone who makes a lot of Fumo-styled plushies of characters. They mostly make Touhou plushies, but they also have DDLC character plushies, and ofc Yume Nikki (with Madotsuki being the only one rn). They also have Natsuki from DDLC and Poniko from Yume Nikki coming sometime in the future.

Here are 2 pics I took of the lil gal yesterday

Madotsuki-Plush.jpg

Madotsuki-Bangin.jpg

First Blog Post

9/13/2024

So uhhhh, idk what to say here yet, this is p much just a test post. But uhhh... Actually idk what to talk about. I mean- I guess there IS something, and it's that I wanna say that I have BIG plans for this website. I want these pages to have more of individual themes, and just more charm and character overall. One idea I have is having the OCs page be similar to Sonic Advance's, though I dont have the skill for that yet, which is why it's currently under construction. I'm also thinking of having it be like a fighting game kinda character select? But again, dont have the coding skills for that yet. I also want more of these pages to have late 90s - early 2010s influence. Ofc, I gotta do all the basics and lay the foundation for the site first, before I move onto all the larger-scale stylistic flares and experimentation. I also wanna have a lil sound test room, with a lil guy that dances to the beat. That'll definitely be difficult to impliment I think. But yeah! Those are my current plans that I can think of! Thanks for reading! I plan on posting here like once a week at least.

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